Being with Tavin is like eating those candies that start out sweet and then turn so sour, your eyes water. When she's happy, her radiance is stunning, but her glow is dimmed by her dark secrets. I knew from the moment I laid eyes on her, sucking on that lollipop, that there was something unique about her. I was right in more ways than one, and while I don't know the extent of suffering that her life entails, I'll do whatever I need to, to convince her she can trust me. I just need to hang on to her long enough to do that.
When he wraps his arms around me, and his warmth makes me feel safe, it's easy to pretend that this is real. I knew going out with him was a bad idea, I just never imagined it would go this far. It was only supposed to be one night. One night to feel like a normal girl. I didn't plan for this and now, every day that passes puts us deeper in danger. All I can do is make the most of every moment with him, so when the time comes for this to end, then at least we'll be left with beautiful memories.
Cupcakes and Crooked Spoons
The problem with getting what you've always wanted, is the chance of losing it. Before I met Alexander, I was blissfully blind, unaware of what was possible. Now that I've seen the colors of his world, I don't know how to go back to the dreariness of mine. As much as I want to allow myself to dream of a life that I never knew was possible, the doubts still dig their claws into my mind and I fear the darkness of my past will destroy it all.
Not my wildest dreams or darkest nightmares could have prepared me for the intricacy that is Tavin Winters. As sweet and gentle as she is, the violence and torment that has been woven into every day of her past remains evident. He will pay for what he's done to her, and I will do my best to give her the serenity she deserves. However this plays out, I will always love her and I will always protect her...even if it's from herself.
Trigger Warning: This novel contains drug use, explicit sexual content, violence, child abuse, and sensitive subject matter that may be triggering for some readers.
Ever since Toben told me to make my first birthday wish, I always wish for the same thing: for us to run away to a beautiful place where they won't ever find us or hurt us again. He's the only person in the world who loves me. I love him too. He's says we're the same, that we're halfpeople. He tries to protect me from the monster. The monster does't love us, but Toben says we don't need him to. Toben is all I need. He's the reason I keep waking up every morning, in this scary life, praying for the day my eyes stay closed.
Tavin is the most precious thing in my life. She gives me a purpose. I love her more than the air in my lungs, and it's because of her that I'm able to hang on to some semblance of who I once was. His sinister cruelty has taken its toll, causing something to change inside of me. She can't ever know the things I've done. The things he's made me do, and the things I've done because of my own darkening heart. She wouldn't understand that I did those things for her. Everything breath I take, every soul I crush is for her. It's all for her.
Trigger Warning: This novel contains drug use, explicit sexual content, violence, extreme child abuse, and sensitive subject matter which may be triggering to some readers.
Trigger Warning: This novel contains drug use, explicit sexual content, violence, and sensitive subject matter which may be triggering for some readers.